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| Wednesday, September 8th, 2004 | | 12:20 pm |
| | Wednesday, August 25th, 2004 | | 10:08 pm |
nics thing
Age of first kiss: 11 Number of people you've kissed: Many. French kissing is: Fun. In the right place, at the right time. With the right person. The worst kind of kiss is: The last kiss? The best kisser you know: I'll pass. The worst kisser you know: Again, I'll pass The celebrity you'd like to kiss: I really don't know. I'll go with Tarja, just for safetys sake. =P Friend you would like to kiss: There's several, but I don't know that some of them would appreciate it. (Don't even think about starting to guess, Grant) Favorite movie kiss: ...mmm, there's a few. Can't pick them off the top of my head, though. Do you kiss on the first date? ... ahaha. Don't make me mad. Eyes open or closed? Closed, less likely to start worrying whether or not this is actually happening. Average number of kisses you get a day: 0.000000000000001? Less, probably. Ever kissed a friend's boyfriend or girlfriend? Might have done. (We were drunk! Spinning bottles! You know, it happens..) The last person you kissed: .... Best placed to be kissed: Mouth/neck. Have you kissed someone of the same sex? Yes, I have. What about the opposite sex? Yes. Do you consider kissing cheating? Not really, though it depends on what kind of kissing. The longest you've gone without a kiss: ... too long? The kiss you regret most is: It'll offend someone. Kissing in public is: ... a major jealousy-causing moment. Tongue rings are: Ugh? Two girls kissing is: *shrugs* Whatever. I've seen it so much lately, it doesnt even register. Two guys kissing is: Rare. Sometimes people around here are too uptight. | | Tuesday, June 22nd, 2004 | | 3:03 pm |
"friend of mine"
are you feeling that you're on the brink, of spilling some red in the sink? it wasn't the easiest year. no i dont want you to go are the memories too hard to take, rape is a word with a face, no i dont want you to go friend of mine stay alive dont you leave me here all alone in the world with a chronic tear i will always be here for you we walked teh promenade in the rain, with velcro shoes and an ice cream stain you're the only one who understands, remember that blake said to make sure you wake, help save your generation, no i dont want you to go don't look back, the past is just that. we are awake! eve 6 | | Saturday, June 12th, 2004 | | 3:25 pm |
| | 3:16 pm |
silent tears indeed
make a silent cry to your god. what if he doesnt want to listen, is not there any more who needs knives when ive got my self. knives would be so much easier. i still keep getting reminded of something i think i heard once, that ppl who cut themselves do so because they dont feel anything emotionly. but what if you find another way to hurt yourself thats not on the surface? and it works only too well.... im losing ppl all around me and i really dont know why, i wish i was back at school, everything was so simple there. i dont know what to do or if i can do anything and in the mean time i just keep cutting myself. i think im going to have to go now and get a pieceing or something. i needed to do something. tattoo is booked for thursday. im going insane. lost and cant find the way out. have been writing a lil in my diary, thats not bad. or it is. if i get around to it i may write it up here. if i can. he cryed, i cryed but all i could think about was how much i wasnt loved and she was. and he looses everything. and it is my fault | | Monday, March 15th, 2004 | | 11:05 am |
shit where do i even start. i have work soon so i cant even start. been having a good time and the most fucked up time here too. im totally covered in brusies its just not funny. and i mean covered. one and a graze on my arse, 2 on each legs, one on my thigh, my ribs hurt like shit, half my hands purple, my arm and elbow are getting purple... my hips both have fucking burises. and thats just physical. i dont know what im doing | | Thursday, February 26th, 2004 | | 2:26 pm |
hey just a quick update. i moved into my house on monday last week and it has a random forest out the back (this is in the middle of town...) and its got a huge fort! wow random. i took the sleep out and stayed myself that week tho friends did come to stay with me. it has 4 bedrooms including the sleepout. ummm been working like crazy at tuskers tue, wed, fri and sun nites and at bagles everyday from 12-2 and started uni today, which is just 9-10 medieval historty mon, tues and fri. kinda full on. jon a mate moved in on monday, random english dude called simon whos been in the contry for 3 weeks moved in yesterday and mate emma (kinda a bitch but there you have it) moves in on sat. so we are filling up! it cost 10 bucks to taxie there from town which is damn cool. and yea. i have to go do stuff! please txt or mail me or what ever. catch yous later. when i have time i will do a good bitch session. cause i need it! but a mate sam (kinda crazy cause i still thought he didnt' like me!) but he said he would come around today so we could talk. we had a huge random talk on sat night at biddys drinks and sleeped up stairs on the single bed together... crazy shit. ummm yea. we talked from like about 2 or 3 too 5. quite cool. gotta go met him now. luvs yas! | | Wednesday, February 11th, 2004 | | 1:08 am |
boredum strikes. identity crisis under nail again, hidden back from wence it came..... and this entry will be as boring as they come. just wanted to do something to fill in cake cooking time i guess. *shrug* i swear im going mad. i cant sleep. not even a little bit. was the same last night too. and this morning. i mean, what the hell! i can understand if i have done shit all, but i took the dog for a walk yesterday, probally roughly 1km up the bush and then back again. got stratches that look like some cats thought my ankle needed dealing with. and i couldnt really sleep all night. woke up at 4.30 maybe? started reading at 5.30am anyways. shit i was bored outta my head then too. meh. got up late cause i got stuck into my book, took the dog really bush! again. ran round the padock then found a stream and followed it. interesting. to say the least. my sis got family rounded up at 8 and we went to play tennis. me, christina and mum biked, hamish ran (dont ask why i have no idea) its a good 2 km, tho it is down hill. did that, couldnt be fucked playing, pretty much cause i cant, so i biked another 1 1/2 i think on the flat to get cell phone reception. scares me, im turning into a yuppy! lol any ways, did a mega bike to get back to the courts and got picked up from there. why cant i sleep! its not fair. i went to bed. listened to a long cd. not sleepy. so i got up at 11.30ish and cleaned my room. still bored and now hungrey. so i made a cake. yummy. so now im going to sit here and not talk to nic cause hes not talking at all.. possilbly play age of the empires and get my kicks there..... ooo one exciting happening today, "Abes Cafe" (lol love the name..!) rang me up and i got an interview!! ooooOOO yay! so now i maybe have that...got tuskers... got a flatmate.. all i need is that damn flat..... shit leaving home. | | Sunday, February 8th, 2004 | | 10:20 pm |
12.49 Heheh after eating corn cob, really really rich choc cake/dessert and a good cup to tea for breakfast im FINALLY making ginger bread men! OooooOOOO YAY! Tis bout time. Have wanted to for a while. Mum and dad buggered off to church. Sad thing is they will be home soon. Listening to my music so loud, metallica at the mo as I copy it. Then it will join the strokes, chilli peppers, garbage, REM, so of johns random songs, I think some offspring, system of a down, nickleback and elemeno p. mum calls it my computer goth music, she cant handle it. Hehe I thnk shes talking bout the mettalica, nickleback and system of a down Ooo yay ginger bread men! Oooooo!!! I cant wait so im heading off/ 1.04 Fuck diddy fuck fuck fuck. No damn GOLDEN SYRUP. Ahhhhhhhhhh we always have golden syrup! Ooooo that’s just nasty. And no choco chips I can find to make something else! This is not fair! And “nothing else matters’ has a bloody skip/frezze I cant handle any more of this song type thing in it! Wft?? That’s not fair, I love this song! * screams LOUDLY * Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh and then wen they did come home they turned of my music and i made gingerbreadmen in silence. hmph! hehe i made legless, armless ones... stretched ones.,.. short fat ones. whats the point in making them if they are all the same? | | Saturday, February 7th, 2004 | | 9:27 pm |
wow ok last night, i just dont know what happened. i was happy and playing drinking games with bidz and talking interesting talks with her. i went to find a mate, simon. christian dude. really cool guy. i went to talk to him. because of last week * he had dropped a bunch of drunk mates around where ever they needed to be, and he stopped at andrews where we were staying the night. i dont know fully what we were talking about but it boiled down to sex. and i was thinking, why the hell is this guy mates with us? we are totally against everything we believe in. just the topic of convosation showed that. and i was thinking, how does he hold to what he is, and keep that with all of us like we are* so i wanted to tell him that. tell him that hes a great mate for sticking in there with us. and i did. and i nearly couldnt. i dont know why, but i started crying. maybe because i wanted to be strongly where he is, but then i want to be the opposite too. and i couldnt handle it on my own by myself. and then i found biddy, and she looked after me and we buggered off for a bit of a talk with her, and she looked after me. and i cant totally remembered what she said, but i was crying a lot more by that time. it was hard to talk. i think she pretty much said that i have to be ok with myself and make my piece with that. and its true. and its hard. we went back into renees. and jp found me and asked me if i was ok. but i didnt really want to get into too much detail. hamish asked if i was ok, and gave me a huge hug. which is pretty good for him. he doesnt always realise what a hug can do. i think we talked for a while. we stood there and hugged for atleast 10mins while i tryed to collect myself.. i think i said a bit more about brett im not to sure. and i felt better, hehe his chin fitted on my head. shit im turning short! and it was really nice. i can remember telling him he smelt nice and he laughed at me, maybe cause he doesnt know how to react otherwise. i felt a lot more at piece. and then later on sam found me! wow that was not really sam, and i think because it was so out of charater it made it that much more special. we started talking a lil when he came out of the toliet, pretty much me asking about him if he had slepted with rachel his girlfriend. which he hadnt. which i admire him alot for. but we got interupted and we didnt want to carry on with ppl hearing us so we said we would get back to it. a wee while later we did. he was very sweet. grabed 6 couch thingys.... and we went a way from everyone and sat down on the lawn and talked. he asked what was up with me and hamish.. and i said i was just upset. so he asked why. he said that he was sure he had heard worse..... so i told him about brett. he was sooo amazinly sweet. lol said ok no i havent heard worse than that. said he didnt know what to say to me. he gave me a hug which i really needed. and said that he was always there if i ever needed to talk, and he put his home number in my phone so if i needed to ring him. bizaar. cause i didnt think he liked me too much. he kept his arm around me and it was.... good, nice.. comforting. the funniest thing was that he said that he didnt know what to say or do and he said everything and did everything completely right. while we were talking.. a few ppl interupted us. sam tryed to be poliet and get rid of them, eventally he realised, shit these ppl are way to drunk to listen so told them "we're having a private convosation.. get outa here!" or something to the effects. and they did. his mates he told to go. and his girlfriend just sat and waited us out. which was really good of her. sam gave me a big hug and had to leave then. and sent me some txts. so very sweet. i just didnt know he had it in him! lol funny shit he thought i needed to go get on a phone line! i dont think so that was my strange evening. i had such a good time and thats the scary thing. i enjoyed myself before hand... had a good cry which i hadnt done in so long, and just the fact my mates were really supportive and there. and i love them so much for it! it was.. amazing. bizaar | | Friday, February 6th, 2004 | | 12:17 am |
fuk it im gunna go make my self happy | | 12:10 am |
oh good god im getting jealous. wtf is wrong with me? and its not nice. and i miss brett when im alone which is too often now. even after what hes done to me i still defend him. why? | | Thursday, February 5th, 2004 | | 2:25 pm |
 You are one of the few out there whose wings are truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and divine, you are one blessed with a certain cosmic grace. You are unequalled in peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of Light your wings are massive and a soft white or silver. Countless feathers grace them and radiate the light within you for all the world to see. You are a defender, protector, and caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver of the wrong, chances are you are taken advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often. But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in everyone and so this mistreatment does not make you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will try to help misguided souls find themselves and peace. However not all Angelics allow themselves to be gotten the better of - the Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting for the sake of Justice and protection of those less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever change - the world needs more people like you. *~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~* brought to you by Quizilla | | 1:59 pm |
o wow i can write things of me...well ok then! i cant wait to get out of home really. i love it but it shall be good to escape fighting screaming parents. and to have acess to life in town (yay for the gym. ok i cant spell and i dont give a shit so live with it. hmph. this is annas i hate hamish day 2. bastard. and i can see where hes coming from so i cant really hate him. shit if there was ever an onion boy hes the one. so bloody wrapped up in his own problems he doesnt see others. idiot. BASTARD! i cant believe he said that too me. fucked up little shit. i could seriously scream. and he had no idea what he did... or more to the point what he didnt do. which was i guess take me seriously. ahhhhhh! im not happy with him at all. and i could rant and rave for hours over it. grrrrrr. well. seeing as he is has theses terrible problems liked EVERY SINGLE OTHER PERSON HIS AGE.. but he cant see that. o its awful! oh no hes 18 and doesnt have a girl friend or never really has. part of the reason is that his mates.. nearly all of us... have over taken him. o but really i can see that he feels so little of himself, but what he doesnt see is that is his problem. nasty circles.. if he felt better bout himself.. he wouldnt push others away and wouldnt scare them off. he seems to have a great capacity for love... maybe. i dunno. he can feel for someone. i haven't felt anything since i was what 8? 9? what kinda shit is that |
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